Been battered, bruised, and torn– Kicked while I was down. Forced to dress your way, so you could steal my crown.

Been battered, bruised, and torn– Kicked while I was down. Forced to dress your way, so you could steal my crown.
The art above my bed reminds me to push on– teaches me I’m worthy– Reminds me how you’re gone.
Every yesterday is a day you can never change.
Can you help me?!
I’ve lost my mind!
Brainwashed–
slowly sinking
into the drain
of uncertainty–
Like a reflection
In wavering water–
The image is clear,
But incomplete.
Life isn’t always
what it seems,
So don’t fill your vessel
With broken dreams.
Who would have thought that I would be Doing what I’ve never done before?
Going places I’ve never gone?
One step forward, two steps back…
I could look at my life as a dance,
But why am I so frustrated
For nobody giving me a chance?
Sitting in the waiting room…
Breathless…
Anticipating…
They said, “You don’t have talent!
You’re not good enough to try!”
They said, “You’re fat and stupid,
And you’re living a big fat lie!”
I’m lying in the present while nightmares of my past
Come gripping at my soul – my future overcast.